I want to be positive and encouraging, supportive and all but its so hard. Because I’m suddenly all too aware of the reality, the harsh stark reality I try to avoid but have to face up to. I guess facts and back up plans aren’t exactly what you want to hear. I just don’t have the energy to be positive for both of us. Wanted to stop the pill for a bit but I dont think the system can deal with that at all.

All I can do really is to hang on, and clutch faith close to my heart. I still know that at the end of it all, it’ll be ok.

Come on me, you can do this. You’ve had it worse and you’ve survived. Stop being selfish and caught up in your emotions. It will be ok, it will be ok, it will be ok, it will be ok.