my heart is happy

it was not always the case

but your thoughtfulness, gentleness

the way you give in to me ( you had mos in mind yet decided to ask wat I wanted)

the way you take care of me

the curiosity you have towards me and wat it’s like

Heading over though tired and dozing off watching OR

the time I asked for watermelon, dinner and a hug but you sent lunch and we had supper

the time you ordered your Mee Soto without taogeh cos you know I don’t like them

失望。妄想。想你。你呢？

someone who knows they definitely want to be with me.

i think today is the day i have to completely let you go. I always suspected it’d be challenging for me to navigate this grey zone, and true enough, it is.

thank you for the good few months. it was really nice to know there was someone i could connect with so well on so many levels. but from all the signs….i guess you dont feel the same and you’re still looking around.

i always wondered what you meant by you worry that you will hurt me. i guess you mean that you like me more than a friend, but just not enough to take things one step further. and i can respect that.

but i dont think i can deal with being a back up plan. i dont need to be someone’s number one and sole priority – i’m secure enough as it is; i just want to be with someone who knows for sure he wants to be with me.

i dont regret the time we spent together; if anything, i hope it reminded you that there is still kindness in the world and that happiness is really quite simple. i hope i brought on more smiles than frowns during the past couple of weeks.

thank you for all the meals (yup meals never made anyone go bankrupt!), all the laughs, all the kind gestures, all the conversations, all the care. thank you for sharing this part of my life with me. For letting me care for you. for reminding me i still have alot of capacity to love, give and care.

i hope you find someone you can truly love wholeheartedly, the way you deserve to be loved. You always have a special place in my heart and I’ll still be rooting for you.

• 

The day everything felt right again.

Some People

By Flavia Weedn

Some people come into our lives
and leave footprints on our hearts
and we are never ever the same.

Some people come into our lives
and quickly go…Some stay for a while
and embrace our silent dreams.

They help us become aware
of the delicate winds of hope…
and we discover within every human spirit
there are wings yearning to fly.

They help our hearts to see that
the only stairway to the stars
is woven with dreams…
and we find ourselves
unafraid to reach high.

They celebrate the true essence
of who we are…
and have faith in all
that we may become.

Some people awaken us
to new and deeper realizations…
for we gain insight
from the passing whisper of their wisdom.

Throughout our lives we are sent
precious souls…
meant to share our journey
however brief or lasting their stay
they remind us why we are here.

To learn…to teach…to nurture…to love.

Some people come into our lives
to cast a steady light
upon our path and guide our every step
their shining belief in us
helps us to believe in ourselves.

Some people come into our
lives to teach us about love…
The love that rests within ourselves.

Let us reach out to others 
and feel the bliss of giving
for love is far richer in action
than it ever is in words.

Some people come into our lives
and they move our souls to sing
and make our spirits dance.

They help us to see that everything on earth
is part of the incredibility of life…
and that it is always there
for us to take of its joy.

Some people come into our lives
and leave footprints on our hearts
and we are never ever the same

Thank you for that moment of magic, albeit brief.

Thank you for brightening up my days, for making me smile, laugh and giggle.

Thank you for letting me be silly and being silly with me.

Thank you for holding space for me, and letting me hold space for you.

Thank you for your kindness and generosity, thank you for caring.

Thank you for bringing back sparks into my life, for acknowledging and telling me how kind, sweet and awesome I am.

Thank you for telling me how well I articulate and remembering things I said.

Thank you for recording a song for me.

Thank you for sharing your vulnerabilities and stories with me.

Thank you for giving me alot more than I did.

Thank you for your honesty, your calm and your ability to articulate respectfully.

Thank you for asking questions to clarify and wanting to understand me better.

Thank you for sharing songs.

Thank you for letting me feel deeply again.

Thank you for caring about my opinion.

Thank you for thanking me all the time.

Thank you for telling me I’m good enough.

Thank you for coming into my life.

Thank you for helping me get over you, your song soothes my aching heart.

I’m not ready to let you go.

I’m not ready to say goodbye.

This is so hard.

and that’s why you are kryptonite.