Daily >3

April 17, 2018

  1. weekends with D. i could get used to them, from running errands to chatting about nonsense to durian hunting. oh and flat tops too.
  2. pressies from mich and HTHTs LOLLL
  3. squeezing in time to sort out a project
  4. schedule changes which worked out for the best cos now i can get to meet JM for sinful dinner
  5. a boss who is sharp enough and caring enough to spot my ‘concerned’ face and ask about it

Daily >3

April 8, 2018


  1. AGM – all the good food the jiejies made, getting re-elected with yy, chats with 校长 , reconnecting with sally
  2. lunch with the crew then randomly heading to metropolitan for tea and debriefing
  3. lovely evening spent with D
  4. very sweet of him to thank me for appreciating me ❤ love this cycle of gratitude!

March 27, 2018

‘whats the probability you’ll be heartless to me?’


March 22, 2018

From opening my ice cream cup to switching off my TV screen when I fall asleep. From making sure i have a blanket covered over me at night to helping me change back unused currency.

daily >3

March 1, 2018

  • boss copy and pasting my email to the wider team
  • colleagues who buy me puff and pies
  • talking rubbish at 6pm about PhD, DP and EDs because we’re all so tired of work
  • that tiny jolt when he holds my fingers tight or that contentment when he kisses my forehead
  • arranging to meet mich downstairs just so we can buy bubble tea
  • m thanking me for being there for my boss and helping him out with team stuff

February 19, 2018

i tink i shldnt invest much in us.

not now anyway.

you said you’re serious about me but then preferred to talk about this another day. i think you’re not ready.

but i need you to be ready and want this on your own accord, and not because i asked.

i have to take a step back, un-invest and be ready to let go.

i mean its not just you who has to think through. i also need to think whether or not this is something worth investing in. and right now im just not sure. so i was hoping you could shed some perspective.



February 18, 2018

I still don’t quite know what’s the deal between us. What does it mean?

February 15, 2018

yesterday left me thoroughly confused.

did i misunderstand what you had said about me being important to you?


i recognise that i shouldnt always think of worst case scenario but i just dont want to get hurt. i dont want to open my heart to someone only to realise they didnt want it. i want signs so that i can be sure its ok to do so.

i get that perhaps in the office setting, its just abit awkward to show anything. so squeezing my hand before i left – yup ok got that. that was reaffirming. and then you also said thanks dear which was like sweet but also huh is that a casual flippant thing?

the key i think was that i didnt get a good sense of who you were out with on vday. and i didnt hear from you the whole night. which means to me you were out with someone who commanded quite a significant amount of your attention. perhaps i shld have just been straightforward and asked.


如果你快乐 不是为我
会不会放手 其实才是拥有

February 12, 2018


原本坚决想’walk into love’的我,感觉似乎快要‘ fall in love’









January 21, 2018

reminder to self, not to invest too much, too soon.

that its ok, to let things go with the flow, because what is meant to be will happen regardless.

its nice to be liked, its that eagerness to want to have certainty to be part of another half.

but its ok its ok its ok. something good doesnt require that much effort.