April 17, 2018

 

 

这首歌似乎描述了我们的故事。慢慢的,而渐渐深深的。

有时会小小担心因为不知道你也是不是一样。

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书里总爱写到喜出望外的傍晚
骑的单车还有他和她的对谈
女孩的白色衣裳男孩爱看她穿
好多桥段
好多都浪漫
好多人心酸
好聚好散
好多天都看不完

刚才吻了你一下你也喜欢对吗
不然怎么一直牵我的手不放
你说你好想带我回去你的家乡
绿瓦红砖
柳树和青苔
过去和现在
都一个样
你说你也会这样

慢慢喜欢你
慢慢的亲密
慢慢聊自己
慢慢和你走在一起
慢慢我想配合你
慢慢把我给你

慢慢喜欢你
慢慢的回忆
慢慢的陪你慢慢的老去
因为慢慢是个最好的原因

晚餐后的甜点就点你喜欢的吧
今晚就换你去床的右边睡吧
这次旅行我还想去上次的沙滩
球鞋手表
袜子和衬衫都已经烫好
放行李箱
早上等着你起床

慢慢喜欢你
慢慢的亲密
慢慢聊自己
慢慢和你走在一起
慢慢我想配合你
慢慢把我给你

慢慢喜欢你
慢慢的回忆
慢慢的陪你慢慢的老去
因为慢慢是个最好的原因

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Daily >3

April 17, 2018

  1. weekends with D. i could get used to them, from running errands to chatting about nonsense to durian hunting. oh and flat tops too.
  2. pressies from mich and HTHTs LOLLL
  3. squeezing in time to sort out a project
  4. schedule changes which worked out for the best cos now i can get to meet JM for sinful dinner
  5. a boss who is sharp enough and caring enough to spot my ‘concerned’ face and ask about it

Daily >3

April 8, 2018

 

  1. AGM – all the good food the jiejies made, getting re-elected with yy, chats with 校长 , reconnecting with sally
  2. lunch with the crew then randomly heading to metropolitan for tea and debriefing
  3. lovely evening spent with D
  4. very sweet of him to thank me for appreciating me ❤ love this cycle of gratitude!

March 27, 2018

‘whats the probability you’ll be heartless to me?’

‘zero.’

March 22, 2018

From opening my ice cream cup to switching off my TV screen when I fall asleep. From making sure i have a blanket covered over me at night to helping me change back unused currency.

daily >3

March 1, 2018

  • boss copy and pasting my email to the wider team
  • colleagues who buy me puff and pies
  • talking rubbish at 6pm about PhD, DP and EDs because we’re all so tired of work
  • that tiny jolt when he holds my fingers tight or that contentment when he kisses my forehead
  • arranging to meet mich downstairs just so we can buy bubble tea
  • m thanking me for being there for my boss and helping him out with team stuff

February 19, 2018

i tink i shldnt invest much in us.

not now anyway.

you said you’re serious about me but then preferred to talk about this another day. i think you’re not ready.

but i need you to be ready and want this on your own accord, and not because i asked.

i have to take a step back, un-invest and be ready to let go.

i mean its not just you who has to think through. i also need to think whether or not this is something worth investing in. and right now im just not sure. so i was hoping you could shed some perspective.

 

 

February 18, 2018

I still don’t quite know what’s the deal between us. What does it mean?

February 15, 2018

yesterday left me thoroughly confused.

did i misunderstand what you had said about me being important to you?

perhaps.

i recognise that i shouldnt always think of worst case scenario but i just dont want to get hurt. i dont want to open my heart to someone only to realise they didnt want it. i want signs so that i can be sure its ok to do so.

i get that perhaps in the office setting, its just abit awkward to show anything. so squeezing my hand before i left – yup ok got that. that was reaffirming. and then you also said thanks dear which was like sweet but also huh is that a casual flippant thing?

the key i think was that i didnt get a good sense of who you were out with on vday. and i didnt hear from you the whole night. which means to me you were out with someone who commanded quite a significant amount of your attention. perhaps i shld have just been straightforward and asked.

 

如果你快乐 不是为我
会不会放手 其实才是拥有

February 12, 2018

有点担心因为动了心

原本坚决想’walk into love’的我,感觉似乎快要‘ fall in love’

我的心啊你怎么已经这样呢?

你的一举一动,你的温柔疼惜,你的细心低调的照顾

有时候猜不透你在想什么,更多时候不敢有期望,以免失望

有时很想更亲近,有时却觉得要保持距离,以免受伤

昨晚亲了一下,感觉天经地义,但是还是不能确认我们倆到底是什么关系

这灰色地带让人忐忑不安

头脑说要耐心一点,顺其自然

但愿这颗心也能听从