ive been blankly starring at this screen and the words ar stuck. There’s a lot of unconscious stress, at work, at home, even the fact that he is going to be away for so Long stresses me out

thats why sometimes I think it’s much better to keep that wall on, it’s a lot easier on the heart when you’re not so close to someone, and you can just not bother

but sad.y my construct doesn’t allow that.

it feels like the end, not start, to the year. Already I’m weary and wary, and we’re merely at the first month of the year.